studies are giving me nightmares.

the day that i started studying my ael i had a nightmare after that.

skipped land training today to study at home.

i've promised not to sleep in class and listen attentively till the end of exams.

which is about 4 more weeks.

need to catch up in order to know what's happening in class.

stressed.

cause it's not easy to study without any lecturer teaching me. 

purely from notes. 

new year resolution of gpa > 3.5 ? hope so. 

another week is over just like that.

just another week closer to exams. :(

i've missed 2 chapters of ael and del. 1 chapter of maths.

i'm going to catch up as much as possible this week.

yes. i'm studying. -.-

our team got the bottom last placing.

used to have 4 good working people.

1 quit, 1 back got severely injured, 1 had a cold and we have no experienced keeper.

so left me in good working condition.

but before 3v3 i didn't really have the mood to play by looking at this team.

first match with tpeace was closed 3-4. 2 mistakes were made by me. i did not shoot well and i deeply regretted for not training up my shooting. 

for so many pool slots i've missed the drive-in shooting because i've to switch boat with zac.

if only i've shoot more maybe that 2 balls would have gotten in making it a 5-4. MAYBE.

and MAYBE if we didn't have that misunderstanding of who is the keeper we wouldn't be so messy during the zone. cause hefron was the actual keeper but because his back hurts he asked me to be but i didn't hear it during the game. so i thought he was still the keeper. 

second match was with spseaweed. junwei came and gave us advice. we heeded them and was leading at first but i didn't know what happen in the end causing it to be a 3-6? i missed 3 blocks as it was all upper bar. if only i know how to keep and lower my paddle as all the 3 shots was near me i could have blocked it. only knew how to keep at the last match when weizheng teach me -.-

third match was with nus d. i really thought we could win them. one of their players got yellow card so it was 3v2. played man-marked but dick didn't know how. i knew how but i was the keeper and it was too late to change. fast break but hefron missed the shot. lobe ball goal and i couldn't catch it was very very emo. 

last match with elmo. didn't really have the mood to play already. and when hefron back finally breakdown. i really did not have any mood left to play. felt like crying by looking at hefron in this state. 

to summarise, there were lots of maybe and if only.

but each individuals mistake got summed up to be team mistakes.

deeply regret for not training up for my shooting. 

and i felt that i didn't do much for the team cause my keeping sucks and i did not do much as i was a keeper. aggression was low throughout the game because i was just sitting there. so many regrets.

but well, it's over. 

and i have a new drive in me.

i can't wait for the next pool slot.

cause i want to train harder. so much harder. especially my shooting.

i like this wake-up call. 

after which ntu friendly till late night.

3v3 competition on sunday morning till night.

it's gonna be one hell of a weekend.

after 3 weeks without gym.

i'm almost as stiff as a robot now.

on the way to jp today.

i saw a damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn cute girl. is seriously damn omg. omgomgomgomg.

and.

my wrist, my elbow and my shoulder are injured. my right arm to be specific.

it's aching like fuck. 

the wrist is the worst. cannot exert any force on it.

i guess no more pushups and bench presses until it's healed. 

hope it will be okay before the next gym session if not no bench presses :(