Well. that was my last year's post for the last day of the year.

Let me wrap up my 08 life.

Yup. It was a whole new environment for me this year. Thought my class life would be better than secondary days cause poly students tend to be fun. But holy shit. I got into a class of 21 China students and 6 local nerds not including myself, duh. It was worse than before. I did try to accept my class but gave up in the end cause it was too. cheena. and nerdy. So my days ahead was a lot of psp-ing, sleeping and emo-ing. Decided to take up water sports this year too so at the start I was thinking of joining wakeboarding, dragonboat or canoepolo. In the end, quite reluctantly joined canoepolo cause sinhan asked me to accompany him. But hey, it turned out fun. Met a lot of fun people and a new passion got instilled in me. The friends I've made in canoepolo totally kept my days in poly going. If I were to depend on my class, god. I rather drop out of poly. Canoepolo definitely took up a lot of time in poly but I've made it this far. Studies was easy for the 1st semester but the difficulty level got up during the 2nd semester. Maybe it is just me sleeping in class almost every single day. That's a habit that I must change ( as if i will ). Drinking was a lot more this year, I just can't imagine what will happen when I turn 18 next year. Drink driving ? Yeah, you all are invited to come eat curry chicken. Friendship was kind of strong throughout the year till recently. I hope we are not drifting. Love was not in my vocabulary this year so we can skip that. Maybe a few fantasies and addiction, HAHA. Family, hmmm, was alright. I don't think I quarreled with any of them this year which is a good thing. What else... this is the year I've became a mac-user ? HAHAHA. 

Alright.  

I think I fulfilled all of last year's resolution as it was a simple one.

Time for this year.

gpa of 3.5 and above, improve in canoepolo, able to play in the nat champs, stronger, hotter body, tanner, ermmmmm. nothing much really. 

happy twenty oh nine peeps. 

and school's starting next monday.

feeling restless and bored this week.

don't feel like blogging anymore already.

well, it was a good run.

a good well-rested day.

pool slot tomorrowwwwww!

these past few days was fun.

had agm and mini gathering on tuesday. definitely will miss all the graduating seniors. after agm went to eat zi cha and drank heavily.

pool slot on wednesday and first time in my life my face turned pale. so apparently i rested throughout most of the time and just watch the game.

wanted to head to town after slot as it was christmas eve but a lot people not free. so the plan was to head home and just sleep. but soon received a call and it was another drinking session at someone's house. 

thursday, which is today. slept till 3pm and was asked to go to town. but something cropped up at the very last minute so headed to town like 9pm just to catch yes man with the rest and have supper.

first time drinking 2 days straight. and first time i got sick of vodka. seriously, vodka just sucks. tomorrow, is rest day. so got to drink lots of water and sleeeeeeeeeeep. 

i do have a few pictures but i'm lazy to upload. so just live with it.

off to prison break.

just got back from malaysia.

time passes very quickly where we were there cause most of the time was busy shopping and only had 1 day of match.

didn't bought lot of things there. think i spent most of my money on food.

auntie anne's ftw.

some of us chipped in money and bought a jack daniel's whiskey on the first day.

as usual leo the noob got high. bil started beating him and everyone followed.

tomorrow there's slot.

tues is agm and hardcore drinking day?

wed is christmas eve and hardcore drinking day?

thur is christmas. 

this is going to be a long post.

lots of things bugging me now.

let's talk about the saddening part. 

the sight of when your so called "team" walking away while someone was still eating was really heartbreaking. it really is. at that time, i felt betrayed and left out. so i supposed this is what we call a team yeah.

and the times when your teammate was wrongly accused of something, you rather help someone who is not playing with you, let's say for the next 1-2 years. i know some spoke up for me, but their actions after that just make me felt that i was in the wrong. this is what we call a team again.

moving towards the angry part,

our clique was so called blacklisted. all i have to say is that, it take's two hands to clap. you have been saying we are not taking initiative to bond or whatsoever but the actual fact is that we already did. another thing is, what did the other clique do to bond with us? i don't see any. they can just say they felt sad by saying there's two cliques. well, i can say that too. 

effort? push yourself? that's what we always hear you say but when i applied it, i've got scolded instead. yes, i was down with food poisoning the day before but i still can do some minimal physical things. so i thought to myself, there's no need for me to report sick. i can't do things as perfect as i can last time but i pushed myself to do the maximum. it may not be a lot but at least i tried. when the others did not do standard, i just heard no count no count. even that i've been accused, that single just one non-standard pull up made our whole group start from zero. bias? i don't care if you're unhappy or what, i care more about my that particular group. i felt bad, i want to do more for them, but i just don't have the strength. as it was "my fault".

i just can't believe, after a shit day of food poisoning vomiting, i still have to face a childish act today. 

i'm too sleepy and tired to feel angry anymore.

just feeling very depressed.

off to sleep...

yesterday was the worst day in 2008.

the puking feeling because of drinking is not even near how i puked yesterday.

i ate laksa after a long long time. but the next thing was food poisoning by it.

laksaphobia.

now, feeling all weak. hope i'll be okay by tomorrow's slot.

ct finally overrr.

but no time to slackkk.

going beach road and gyming tomorrowww.

sat, sun, mon, tues and wed have pool slottt.

thur fri sat sun going kl with teammm.

tireddd.

ohoh! i saw this bangla using a miniature n95 8gb the other day. damnn cuteeee!

will head down to sls one day to findddd. wahahaha.

byeee.

just 2 more papers !

how fast.

bye !

like finally.

exam fatness.

sucks ! 

and now. doing ael and del ct. feeling low.

hais.

playing "everything we had" over and over again.

jiayou bf !

about a girl.

HAHA.

anyway ! i think today was kind of a productive day. it was my first time looking at advanced maths though the lecturer has been teaching it for like 2 months already.

well, i think i'm going to fail this module. don't understand anything at all. spent the whole day doing just one common test paper.

but then again. i still have 3 whole days to study. so i think can make it la.

after studying. went to have late late dinner at market again. listening emo songs all the way. then sh and i decided to buy 1 bottle of baron each to drink.

so now, i'm sooo sleepy. don't think i'm going to study anymore today. 

tomorrow wake up at 9am to chiong. 

Everything we had - The Academy is...

coincidence. connections. fate.

i just remember i have adv maths to study. 

from the start ! cause leo always distract me in class. knssss.

did not go to school today. because i overslept for comt.

well, at least i can study at home. target for today, finish em3a.

it's all falling apart.